Feelings.......

Last night I went to service and NoHo New Thought and something was said about feelings. The person saying it, was saying how they are starting to deal more with feelings and it hit me.....all I do is deal with feelings but where I am is: not reacting to all the feelings I feel or react to what I get from other people but to act up on it. This is new to me because I was nothing but reactions, sometime good, sometime maybe and sometime scary (for other people....they run:-).

In My terms: reaction - without thinking, don't care what happens, sorta selfish, not self
servicing (a good thing-taking care of self to be better for the world and Living
Life).

act up on - thinking, breathing, making sure what I do is for the Good and not for
the ego, that which is self servicing to me and those around me. Act up on base in
Unconditional Love. Acting up on is not a selfish thing because for me it's about
the Good, the Whole , the Love for all because we are One.

So, the last few weeks I've been up and down....because of all these feelings I had and what I was getting for other (I had to stop and think about the getting from others part and make sure it wasn't something I was making up...ego. so, I got rid of those things...) And not just reacting to everything which can be crazy....yes, I've lived in the land of crazy before.... Sometime you do get things from others but they're not ready to deal with it, even if you think you are. WOW, not reacting is so hard and it can move you all over the place. I have talked to me alot..."is there anything here to create with", "is this base in Love", "did you breath?", "okay monkey mind take a break!" etc, etc, etc.....feelings, so apart of me, so apart of all. Spirit so apart of me, so apart of all....all my trust in Spirit and let Spirit work with the feelings for the Good. Oh wait, I Am Spirit, it moves through me, around me, in me. It is that Energy from which We All come From, I Am....We Are that Spirit which is Good! Spirit goes to Good, from Good caring Good back and forth....I'm saying this, I know this, I Am this but there are time when I step from It. It's the stepping away that's making the ups and down.....It the stepping away when I react instead of Acting up on and I Am saying all this right now to remind MYSELF that this is how It all works and I should get out the way if I'm not going to work with It! because It's always working with and/or without me......WOW! I see the facts but can I Live The Truth.....My Truth, Our Truth. I Love you and I accept what you have to offer and I know that what is see is nothing compared to what I have because I Am Unlimited.....Unconditional...I Am All.

Okay, everyone is not going to feel like I feel, everyone is not ready to deal or work with their feeling like I want to do. There are many who deal & work with their feelings better than I can deal with mine....because they can and when I want to it will happen. This is a major change happening in My Life and it's only just begun (that's a song) and this is the ride I want....the journey I need and the path I'm walking and I know I'm not alone......never and I Love...

I know this is all so random and running on and around but this is how my thoughts, words and writings good because it's the way my mind works in this moment and all we have is moment to moment and the space in between and I just have to do my best work, where I am.......