I've bee thinking (can be trouble) how much time have I wasted by not saying what's there, not listening to what's being said (because I think I know the answers) and fear (I found this fear point while thinking) and you know what....it's all fear base. The fear of losing something and just never stop to see that you're losing a lot more because of it....fear.
The last few days, I've been talking to folks but several times I didn't say all that I felt or was thinking because I had the fear that they would be angry or they would leave or send me away. So, I just judged myself and them and the situation and just kept mouth shut. Now, you don't have to say everything you feel or thinks, somethings aren't needed but when they are....don't be afraid to say it. Then when others were talking there were times I didn't listen because I didn't believe them or what I was hearing or I assumed I knew what they were going to say...just not listening out of fear. Then when I think about it later I realize I was all wrong and I missed out and/or wasted time.
If the fear wasn't there, I could up with much more then I thought I would lose. I would hear the Truth and not sit there dreaming of what would, could or maybe might be. I could move forward to what is mine. what is there to lose in Truth? Nothing It's all mine and I know this, I believe it, in thought but there is still apart of me not Living It.
Now, I can't go back and change the time I've wasted. BUT, I can change my choices from now on, Act upon it to move forward. Whatever the situation, I can't lose what is mine and if all is Truth, Love and All Trust in Spirit with , in and of Good...It's all going to be okay. I nee to chose to stop wasting time and not be afraid, Forgive, Accept and Release the choices whatever will BE - Open to It All.
working on it and not wasting time
Being Open
Being Me
and all that's mine, is mine
IN LOVE!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Good morning baby, time to go out and Meet your GREAT!
This was said to me almost every morning of my childhood. Now I understand.....
This morning I start the day with Love, I add Me to that Love and we become One...Now I Am Love. Then I add the rest of my day to that Love, whatever I find and wherever I find it. I Am Open to whatever happens and ready to moving in All directions. I Am Thankful and Grateful for all that is mine, and everything is mine and all that happens, happens for my Greater Good. I release my Words as Law, into the Law and I Am GREAT! I Celebrate the Greatness in the small steps and in the big steps because they are all one steps moving forward. I Celebrate the Your Steps, all of them, for WE Are All GREAT, We Are Love and We will use It All to Our highest.
and so it is.....
This morning I start the day with Love, I add Me to that Love and we become One...Now I Am Love. Then I add the rest of my day to that Love, whatever I find and wherever I find it. I Am Open to whatever happens and ready to moving in All directions. I Am Thankful and Grateful for all that is mine, and everything is mine and all that happens, happens for my Greater Good. I release my Words as Law, into the Law and I Am GREAT! I Celebrate the Greatness in the small steps and in the big steps because they are all one steps moving forward. I Celebrate the Your Steps, all of them, for WE Are All GREAT, We Are Love and We will use It All to Our highest.
and so it is.....
today 6/27/10
This morning I was not using my highest Good and it took a lot of talking and listening for me to see the full Light. I let the little ego have a short outing and that's okay.
So, little "e" was there today and then monkey mind jumped in and the little boy sat in the corner crying, "why me?" and just got mad. That was okay, too.
I was standing on the ledge, had to talk myself back into the room and close the window. I was so into poor me I almost missed the Love that was mine and the Love that was being given to me, a new hat from n'orleans and a sewing machine....that was Love, I was Love, there was alot of Love there and I was soooo Thankful.
So, in two hours, I moved from the ledge, into the room and down a couple of floors. Then I started talking to myself and a really Great Friend and a Friend I hadn't talked to in years and I got to the lobby. Then I went to a workshop and saw and talked to and shared Love with folks I knew and some new folks and got close to the front door in the lobby. I was talking to one of the new folks and we were talking about several things and I said; "You are the Love of you Life and from there you share the Love with others....WOW, I heard It....I Am the Love of My Life! I share It, All is based on It and everything that happens is for My Good. Oh yes, I Am out on the street again.
Then all that stuff I put myself through in the am, I had to look and see where it was in me, what brought it in for me to experience and what Action I needed to take to move forward. I Am My Co-Creator, It is mine and if I don't want it, I can chose different, chose better, chose and base My choices in Love and Good. I can move back up to that higher level of Good and Action.
It was okay to feel it all, all that "stuff" I experience but the lessons could have been heard and learned on a much higher level of Good, I need to make better choices but Thank God, Thank Me, I can change those choices.
Oh, I ended the night out by seeing a really nice reading of a play and then had a drink with a table of Love, 3 people who gives me Love and I shower them with a lot of Love ( I hoped I'm not scaring them :-))
For me, today.... I saw it, not beauty. But I acted upon to move forward. I Forgave, Accepted and Release. I let it all be okay, let it BE GOOD. Basing My Life, experience and everything and everyone in Love. The change is mine to do, the growth is mine to Be and My choices are all mine to make.
There is the Creator. I Am One with the Creator. We are Co-Creators together....of My Life, My Experiences. All is mine with complete Trust in Spirit. I Am Thankful and Happy for the Experience, each and everyone and they are all for My highest Good.
an I release All as Law, into the Law and I jump for Joy!!
and so it is.
I Am certain there is more to come........
It's just me!
So, little "e" was there today and then monkey mind jumped in and the little boy sat in the corner crying, "why me?" and just got mad. That was okay, too.
I was standing on the ledge, had to talk myself back into the room and close the window. I was so into poor me I almost missed the Love that was mine and the Love that was being given to me, a new hat from n'orleans and a sewing machine....that was Love, I was Love, there was alot of Love there and I was soooo Thankful.
So, in two hours, I moved from the ledge, into the room and down a couple of floors. Then I started talking to myself and a really Great Friend and a Friend I hadn't talked to in years and I got to the lobby. Then I went to a workshop and saw and talked to and shared Love with folks I knew and some new folks and got close to the front door in the lobby. I was talking to one of the new folks and we were talking about several things and I said; "You are the Love of you Life and from there you share the Love with others....WOW, I heard It....I Am the Love of My Life! I share It, All is based on It and everything that happens is for My Good. Oh yes, I Am out on the street again.
Then all that stuff I put myself through in the am, I had to look and see where it was in me, what brought it in for me to experience and what Action I needed to take to move forward. I Am My Co-Creator, It is mine and if I don't want it, I can chose different, chose better, chose and base My choices in Love and Good. I can move back up to that higher level of Good and Action.
It was okay to feel it all, all that "stuff" I experience but the lessons could have been heard and learned on a much higher level of Good, I need to make better choices but Thank God, Thank Me, I can change those choices.
Oh, I ended the night out by seeing a really nice reading of a play and then had a drink with a table of Love, 3 people who gives me Love and I shower them with a lot of Love ( I hoped I'm not scaring them :-))
For me, today.... I saw it, not beauty. But I acted upon to move forward. I Forgave, Accepted and Release. I let it all be okay, let it BE GOOD. Basing My Life, experience and everything and everyone in Love. The change is mine to do, the growth is mine to Be and My choices are all mine to make.
There is the Creator. I Am One with the Creator. We are Co-Creators together....of My Life, My Experiences. All is mine with complete Trust in Spirit. I Am Thankful and Happy for the Experience, each and everyone and they are all for My highest Good.
an I release All as Law, into the Law and I jump for Joy!!
and so it is.
I Am certain there is more to come........
It's just me!
Friday, June 25, 2010
aaaaaaaaah......
aaaaaaaah - everything going through my mind today and monkey mind is having a fields day.
FORGIVE - ACCEPT - RELEASE
that's all that I keep saying. I sew, I finish a piece and then I walk. I've been on two walks today and it's just 12pm and those who know me, knows my walks are not short. Been by the Theatre twice, I get a lot of Good Energy there, also Spiritual Center but today....not so much. The comfort level did raise.
I"m feeling very open today, for whatever comes but there is a mild fear there. No, don't want to experience fear at any level or degree. But something in me is holding on to it.....What? All these feelings coming, it's like a car wash on a Saturday....a line of feelings waiting to be washed or sent away. Some I need to deal with but I don't want to stop working.....Oh, maybe that's a little of that fear!? The people I normally would talk to, are nowhere to be founded...aaaaaaah!!
I will base all this stuff in Love. All that happens is for my Good, always, I might not see it now but I know it is True, Truth! I Am Love. I Am One with Spirit, going to and coming from Good. My Trust is in Spirit, which means my Being One with Spirit, all my Trust is in Me....The Good, The Light, Love is Me, in Me, around Me.
FORGIVE - ACCEPT - RELEASE
I Am never alone and sometime the Journey my have bumps but I just need to slow down and breathe - One breath can change the World, My World.
So, today maybe an aaaaaaaaaaaaaah day but it will be a Good aaaaaaaaaaaah day and All will work out for the Good. Just situations and I will resolve and move forward. No problems to stop me. There is an Energy from which We All come from....God and I Am One with God and We Are One with All. Abundant, Prosperous, Health, Loving, a Divine Power and Unconditional Love. It is all mine and I want for nothing. This thing I feel called fear is no longer and not needed. An experience I can and will do without. My strength, my substance all comes from One Source......GOD (THE ENERGY). I Am Thankful to know this, see this, feel this and Celebrate it All - dancing in the rain (thanks, Steve for writing that!)
I FORGIVE - ACCEPT - an RELEASE All as Law, into the Law knowing that when the music stops, the dance continue for it All works to and from and for Good!
and so it is....
aaaaaaaaaaah, a Good Day!
FORGIVE - ACCEPT - RELEASE
that's all that I keep saying. I sew, I finish a piece and then I walk. I've been on two walks today and it's just 12pm and those who know me, knows my walks are not short. Been by the Theatre twice, I get a lot of Good Energy there, also Spiritual Center but today....not so much. The comfort level did raise.
I"m feeling very open today, for whatever comes but there is a mild fear there. No, don't want to experience fear at any level or degree. But something in me is holding on to it.....What? All these feelings coming, it's like a car wash on a Saturday....a line of feelings waiting to be washed or sent away. Some I need to deal with but I don't want to stop working.....Oh, maybe that's a little of that fear!? The people I normally would talk to, are nowhere to be founded...aaaaaaah!!
I will base all this stuff in Love. All that happens is for my Good, always, I might not see it now but I know it is True, Truth! I Am Love. I Am One with Spirit, going to and coming from Good. My Trust is in Spirit, which means my Being One with Spirit, all my Trust is in Me....The Good, The Light, Love is Me, in Me, around Me.
FORGIVE - ACCEPT - RELEASE
I Am never alone and sometime the Journey my have bumps but I just need to slow down and breathe - One breath can change the World, My World.
So, today maybe an aaaaaaaaaaaaaah day but it will be a Good aaaaaaaaaaaah day and All will work out for the Good. Just situations and I will resolve and move forward. No problems to stop me. There is an Energy from which We All come from....God and I Am One with God and We Are One with All. Abundant, Prosperous, Health, Loving, a Divine Power and Unconditional Love. It is all mine and I want for nothing. This thing I feel called fear is no longer and not needed. An experience I can and will do without. My strength, my substance all comes from One Source......GOD (THE ENERGY). I Am Thankful to know this, see this, feel this and Celebrate it All - dancing in the rain (thanks, Steve for writing that!)
I FORGIVE - ACCEPT - an RELEASE All as Law, into the Law knowing that when the music stops, the dance continue for it All works to and from and for Good!
and so it is....
aaaaaaaaaaah, a Good Day!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Why I write this blog/what's wrong with me......
I just finish writing this blog that is attach to this and was thinking: This is why I write this blog....the feeling of Freedom and that feeling makes my Heart sing because it what we all want. It combines so many other feelings for me! I know whoever reads this knows who I am, my picture is here for them to see but they done have that need to answer and I don't feel the need to explain every word. also, we can talk about it all, if they want and when they want.
I know to some it doesn't make sense. It's just feelings of an old....but there might be one who understand what I'm talking about and going through the same thing and might want to share some thoughts that gets us both thinking and for us to get out of our own way! It also let some folks know how I fee... even if they think I'm crazy, now they know why.
So, Let's talk.....
Let's share thoughts
Let's Open Ourselves to what we feel
but Let's be Honest
Let's Trust Spirit....to the Good!
One of My Mirrors.
What's wrong with me....
There is an old habit that I'm finding it hard to really release and it's effecting other parts of my Being, Of course....
When I find someone that I think is Special, I start labeling myself by their reaction to me. Oh, Thank Goodness I'm not as bad as I was but it's hanging in little bites. I see it, I know what it is, I do think about it sometime, like to day. Special is a two way street, I know. My feelings are my own, I know. Just because I feel a certain way doesn't mean other people feel the same way, I know. But I also try to figure out what they're feeling. I answer things for them, even though I haven't ask them a question, (Does make sense, right?)
I Am a Wonderful. Loving, Caring person
I Am a Great Friend
I Am Smart
I Am_____
I know, what one person thinks of me isn't who I Am (Good or bad) but I need to find a balance. I've been showing stupid like behavior in this area. Monkey mind lives for me to have these feelings and thoughts. When I find myself in this area of thought, I make myself disappear sometime. I pull away but it doesn't make me feel any better because I'm not dealing with it....aaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!
What is it that draws all this to me? What is it in me and why can't/won't I stop looking at it?
I get all these feelings and can't talk to the person about it.....Why? Uncomfortable (for both) to tell me what they think or they tell me what they think I want to hear, they are giving me as much as they can and/or they don't want to look within them self...aaaaahhhhh!
I Love being Open but sometime it's hard for me working with and in it. If I can figure out how to work with it all, I can and will change my Life. I NEED TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE WAY!!!!!
Tears, I need tears, it will cleanse.
When I Am Open and being Creative the flood of things enters. I Love It and hate it.
What is it about me that stops people? What is it about giving people a chance that's so hard. I know you don't and maybe won't like most things about me but walk the path you might find something you like and want to take a chance and see what's happening. I Love You and yes, I shouldn't give up so much Power but I Am Unlimited and Unconditional 95% of the time. I Will get a handle of all of this.
Here's the deal, I Love a lot and I give a lot but at the end of the day you have and I want a Friend! Let's talk. We need to see the guidelines and remember because We Are Friends, everything that happens between us should bring us closer, if We stat Open and Share. I will tell you my guidelines but they really aren't all that because 10 I wort to be Open 2) I start in and from a place of Love 3) I will join in and let you be You and I will be Me.
I want to walk with you, not take you in a different direction and if we have to go different ways, know that we will join again and I will always be there. When I see You, I see Me!
Let us Trust Spirit and put all Trust into Spirit, it only goes to and from Good and each time it gets better and Greater.
WOW, Love determines who We Are, that Energy from which we all come from is our Source and Supply....LOVE! I know this and I HAVE TO LIVE IT!....Forgive - accept and release!!!!
This, I will continue to work on, but I heard today (6/20/10), I just need to say;
"There is No One here to experience this....so, it must leave, it's has no thing to hold on to. I must experience Freedom and We all must experience that Freedom because We Are....
I know to some it doesn't make sense. It's just feelings of an old....but there might be one who understand what I'm talking about and going through the same thing and might want to share some thoughts that gets us both thinking and for us to get out of our own way! It also let some folks know how I fee... even if they think I'm crazy, now they know why.
So, Let's talk.....
Let's share thoughts
Let's Open Ourselves to what we feel
but Let's be Honest
Let's Trust Spirit....to the Good!
One of My Mirrors.
What's wrong with me....
There is an old habit that I'm finding it hard to really release and it's effecting other parts of my Being, Of course....
When I find someone that I think is Special, I start labeling myself by their reaction to me. Oh, Thank Goodness I'm not as bad as I was but it's hanging in little bites. I see it, I know what it is, I do think about it sometime, like to day. Special is a two way street, I know. My feelings are my own, I know. Just because I feel a certain way doesn't mean other people feel the same way, I know. But I also try to figure out what they're feeling. I answer things for them, even though I haven't ask them a question, (Does make sense, right?)
I Am a Wonderful. Loving, Caring person
I Am a Great Friend
I Am Smart
I Am_____
I know, what one person thinks of me isn't who I Am (Good or bad) but I need to find a balance. I've been showing stupid like behavior in this area. Monkey mind lives for me to have these feelings and thoughts. When I find myself in this area of thought, I make myself disappear sometime. I pull away but it doesn't make me feel any better because I'm not dealing with it....aaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!
What is it that draws all this to me? What is it in me and why can't/won't I stop looking at it?
I get all these feelings and can't talk to the person about it.....Why? Uncomfortable (for both) to tell me what they think or they tell me what they think I want to hear, they are giving me as much as they can and/or they don't want to look within them self...aaaaahhhhh!
I Love being Open but sometime it's hard for me working with and in it. If I can figure out how to work with it all, I can and will change my Life. I NEED TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE WAY!!!!!
Tears, I need tears, it will cleanse.
When I Am Open and being Creative the flood of things enters. I Love It and hate it.
What is it about me that stops people? What is it about giving people a chance that's so hard. I know you don't and maybe won't like most things about me but walk the path you might find something you like and want to take a chance and see what's happening. I Love You and yes, I shouldn't give up so much Power but I Am Unlimited and Unconditional 95% of the time. I Will get a handle of all of this.
Here's the deal, I Love a lot and I give a lot but at the end of the day you have and I want a Friend! Let's talk. We need to see the guidelines and remember because We Are Friends, everything that happens between us should bring us closer, if We stat Open and Share. I will tell you my guidelines but they really aren't all that because 10 I wort to be Open 2) I start in and from a place of Love 3) I will join in and let you be You and I will be Me.
I want to walk with you, not take you in a different direction and if we have to go different ways, know that we will join again and I will always be there. When I see You, I see Me!
Let us Trust Spirit and put all Trust into Spirit, it only goes to and from Good and each time it gets better and Greater.
WOW, Love determines who We Are, that Energy from which we all come from is our Source and Supply....LOVE! I know this and I HAVE TO LIVE IT!....Forgive - accept and release!!!!
This, I will continue to work on, but I heard today (6/20/10), I just need to say;
"There is No One here to experience this....so, it must leave, it's has no thing to hold on to. I must experience Freedom and We all must experience that Freedom because We Are....
Thursday, June 17, 2010
THINKING....
Thinking....at times this could be a situation but today I don't think so.
My Life as it is today (facts) is mine. I took some stuff, didn't know what to do with some stuff and wished for a lot of stuff.. My Creation!
I made choices, which at the time felt good and the choices were reactions instead of Action (Act upon to move forward) and I didn't change some choices but tried to make them work. I was told once, " you can never make mistakes, they're choices and you can change them and move forward!" Okay, what I'm understanding is they can be called mistakes when I won't change the choice and just complain. But if I take Action moving forward they continue to be choices.
I have this Wonderful, Beautiful, Powerful birth rite and I won't use it all the time....The Power of Choice and the Power to change those Choices.
I'm thinking it's time to make choice that are moving forward. There is a Wonderful Energy from which we've all come from and I'm not using it at the highest level. I still have some of the blame game going. I Am Celebrating the steps that I have made and the time, less time, I take to change my choices but there are still a few I'm just sitting in and asking why?
As I look at the facts of the things around me, I must Live in the Truth of all It is. One being that these facts are my creation and I can change them. I must forgive me, accept all and release all then move on to a higher level and not just sit, ask why and don't Act upon. There is always an Action to take, sometime small and other large but an Action none the less. A big Action is listening to myself and others....what is the saying; when someone tells you they are a certain way believe them, also look at their Actions and yours - Actions are saying a lot, loud and clear. The only Action YOU can change is yours.
as I said; "I've been thinking." Now it's time for Action, moving forward no matter how small, no matter how large.
There is the Energy
I Am One with that Energy
All my source and substance comes from that Energy
I Am Thankful for the Energy
I release it all as Law, into the Law
and so It is
My Life as it is today (facts) is mine. I took some stuff, didn't know what to do with some stuff and wished for a lot of stuff.. My Creation!
I made choices, which at the time felt good and the choices were reactions instead of Action (Act upon to move forward) and I didn't change some choices but tried to make them work. I was told once, " you can never make mistakes, they're choices and you can change them and move forward!" Okay, what I'm understanding is they can be called mistakes when I won't change the choice and just complain. But if I take Action moving forward they continue to be choices.
I have this Wonderful, Beautiful, Powerful birth rite and I won't use it all the time....The Power of Choice and the Power to change those Choices.
I'm thinking it's time to make choice that are moving forward. There is a Wonderful Energy from which we've all come from and I'm not using it at the highest level. I still have some of the blame game going. I Am Celebrating the steps that I have made and the time, less time, I take to change my choices but there are still a few I'm just sitting in and asking why?
As I look at the facts of the things around me, I must Live in the Truth of all It is. One being that these facts are my creation and I can change them. I must forgive me, accept all and release all then move on to a higher level and not just sit, ask why and don't Act upon. There is always an Action to take, sometime small and other large but an Action none the less. A big Action is listening to myself and others....what is the saying; when someone tells you they are a certain way believe them, also look at their Actions and yours - Actions are saying a lot, loud and clear. The only Action YOU can change is yours.
as I said; "I've been thinking." Now it's time for Action, moving forward no matter how small, no matter how large.
There is the Energy
I Am One with that Energy
All my source and substance comes from that Energy
I Am Thankful for the Energy
I release it all as Law, into the Law
and so It is
Let's Talk
Okay my day: Really Good day, sewing, soup kitchen, service, Great talk, saw Great One Woman show but I'm avoiding what I'm feeling.....thinking......want to write about
I'm feeling....I'm feeling.....I'm taking responsible.
I Love and I'm kind of in Love but I'm holding myself back because of fear: I'm not what's wanted; I won't be a dream; I will be to clingy; I can't prove myself; we won't be friend; he doesn't "like" me; etc, etc. I can come up with many more things to stop me from expressing. Which is strange because I'm such a Unconditional person, sometime to much for people...
I want your Friendship! I want your Love! I want your Liking!
I try to figure out everything before acting. I'm not your wants but I Am those things that you say you're looking for. I want your Friendship, that ultimate Friendship that we all search for but for some reason we push away when we find it....do we fear it? Oh, I'm not crazy I know this has to be found in both parties involved and I have lied to myself before. But I'm writing My feelings and thoughts. I guess one reason I don't say anything because I don't want to lose your Friendship....fear.
I Like you, I Like being around you, I Like watching you, I Like talking to you, I Like You and more. I won't say you complete me or that you're my everything but I do want to walk this Journey with you. I do want to talk about it all with you. I do want to sit in the silents with you. Most of all I want to Breathe with you.
I do want, no matter what happens I want to say; Here is my Friend....We've gone through alot but here we are Friends!
When I see you, I see me
Our Energies mix well
I Love You Unconditionally!
I Like You!
CAN WE TALK?
I'm sure I've missed something but here are my feelings and thoughts.
Yes, this is A Love Letter!
I'm feeling....I'm feeling.....I'm taking responsible.
I Love and I'm kind of in Love but I'm holding myself back because of fear: I'm not what's wanted; I won't be a dream; I will be to clingy; I can't prove myself; we won't be friend; he doesn't "like" me; etc, etc. I can come up with many more things to stop me from expressing. Which is strange because I'm such a Unconditional person, sometime to much for people...
I want your Friendship! I want your Love! I want your Liking!
I try to figure out everything before acting. I'm not your wants but I Am those things that you say you're looking for. I want your Friendship, that ultimate Friendship that we all search for but for some reason we push away when we find it....do we fear it? Oh, I'm not crazy I know this has to be found in both parties involved and I have lied to myself before. But I'm writing My feelings and thoughts. I guess one reason I don't say anything because I don't want to lose your Friendship....fear.
I Like you, I Like being around you, I Like watching you, I Like talking to you, I Like You and more. I won't say you complete me or that you're my everything but I do want to walk this Journey with you. I do want to talk about it all with you. I do want to sit in the silents with you. Most of all I want to Breathe with you.
I do want, no matter what happens I want to say; Here is my Friend....We've gone through alot but here we are Friends!
When I see you, I see me
Our Energies mix well
I Love You Unconditionally!
I Like You!
CAN WE TALK?
I'm sure I've missed something but here are my feelings and thoughts.
Yes, this is A Love Letter!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
some more old stuff.....
Discomfort Street
As I walk down the street of discomfort toward the corner of change and growth, I know that I Am not alone. There is an Energy, a feeling that I know as God. It is in me, around me, It is ME, One with All. Discomfort Street is so busy, so much going and coming. I stop, sit, wait for the quiet and ask; “What are we creating here?” I Listen, I hear… intentions – changed; goals – changed; my Life – changed. I realize that I have decided to Live my Life, Open and ready for all that come, one step at a time, moment to moment. Knowing abundance, health, joy, peace…Love an unlimited Power and unconditional. Starting each day with Love, adding me, myself to that Love. The Greatest base to greet each moment of the day. I am so Thankful to know this change, I Am so Grateful to feel this growth and I Am Blessed to know them both and accept and share them, knowing change will happen again and growth will follow.
I get up from my quiet place and continue to walk down Discomfort Street knowing that the intersection of change and growth is where I want to be NOW. To have that Love as a base I dance in Unlimited Power, no conditions, Peace, Calm, Joy and Abundance all Light the way. At the corner of change and growth I know that my Words are Law. I can turn and go in any direction and IT is God, IT is Good. I release and accept and I change and grow. I realize and know that this intersection is part of the path to my core the Town Square of my Life. Right in the center is the Tree of Love…Huge, reaching out and covering the Whole Being that is ME – I Celebrate – I know that the streets of discomfort lead to the intersection of change and growth, that leads to the Square where Love is rooted and cover all my Life, whatever the label place on it, I just need to follow the Energy I feel, trust the Spirit that I Am, we only go to and come from the Good and I let go all that does not represent my Good, that was and is given to me, knowing
Spirit and the Whole always comes with me as I Live in the Now.
There is a Celebration of Being Me…One with All. The same All that is in You.
I AM A CELEBRATION OF THE ALL.
Essence, Self Respect, Self Esteem
WOW a lot to look at, stuff that I have looked already and will continue to look at.
Thanks to FB and friends here with me, I know and have accepted my Essence, accepted what people feel and say about me and the Energy I send out, okay it’s true. People from my “Dark Days are still here with me, I thought none of them wanted to be in contact with me. I did some things I felt bad about and I walked away, no ran away, because I didn’t like what I saw in me. Now years later these people are reaching out to me. The Curtis they talk about, I don’t remember. Now, I realize he was there and I was able to release a lot of things that I let hold me back, the biggest was trust in myself. The whys were answered, those answers were all in my head, but I let the excuses push people away even though I needed people in my Life. My moving so much was running but every time I got to a new place the fear would catch up, the fear I brought with me.
“It is the power of your Presence
It is the heat and light from your burning log.
And it touches everyone who comes
In contact with you….”
This has been said to me in one-way or another many times. I didn’t believe it, wouldn’t accept it, I wasn’t worth it. I was only listening to the negative, couldn’t, wouldn’t hear anything- positive…positive, that can’t be true. Why? But…
Several things came to me: 1) why’s are building blocks to my walls. 2) no matter how dark I think it is, there is still a Light and 3) there is an Energy in me that doesn’t care, it always Loves me.
Whys can be good, informative but I was blocking with them, excuses, never really wanted an answer and if I got one I only heard the negative. I call a certain time in my life, “The Dark Days”, but there is always a Light, no matter how small and I should always head to the Light. The biggest thing I realized and came to know and accept…The Light is ME! In the dark there is always Light, because I’m there. That Energy that’s always there is Love. Always with me, around me, in fact IT IS ME. My main intention each day is to always come from a place of Love. I start will Love add me to it, then add everything, anything that comes up each day to Love and me. Coming for that place put Light on everything that happens and I like seeing what I Am doing.
Curtisc
Treatments
In looking at the vastness and the smallness, when it all comes down to It, It’s all the Oneness…amazing and Perfect, also, my feeling of being apart of it All. These last two weeks doing this practice, when things happen, I try to place whatever it is and see where it truly fits in between the vastness and smallness. It always comes back to the Oneness. On Sunday the 21st, friends had their first baby in the morning, I closed a show, I enjoyed, the afternoon and the evening a friend die. A total day of transition! The Joy, sadness, happiness all became the same thing…. Perfect. Just taking it all one step at a time and realizing it’s all the me. The vastness, the smallness and me….The Oneness.
I know God is All there is, the One. I Am One with All.
In All there is no lack, sadness, fear. Being One with All I have no lack, sadness or fear. We Are the Faith of God, with that Faith I know my finances are secure, with that Faith there is only Light, Love and abundance. With the Faith of God there is only Good, Greatness, ME. I have decided that abundance and priority are the dances I shall dance, the songs that I will sing. Added to Love, this Faith is the Life I shall Live. I Am so Blessed, Grateful and Thankful for this Knowledge and I speak these Words, my Words as Law, for it is done NOW.
I shall dance and sing in every moment, for each moment is my first, my NOW.
And so it is.
There is one unlimited Power that surge through all, that Power is God the Oneness. The Power surge in me, around me, through me and can only Be Me. It and I are one; I use It as It uses Me and I Am open to More. This surge of Power carries the flow of Abundance, Joy, Happiness which rains down upon me, through Me and around me…It is all Me. There is no fear in this unlimited Power, this Unconditional Love and being One with It, there is no fear in me. For there is Now Abundance, Joy, Happiness and Love…Now and always.
I am so Grateful, Thankful, Blessed for all this is mine Now and I continue to dance in this rain of Power, I take these words, this Power and All the Love which is All Law, knowing that it is done Now. I celebrate in this continuous Journey
And so It is
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