The Process....

Starting the process....Yesterday 8/26/10 was a Great day. I got a lot of info and change is here. News, new, situations, finding solutions. Checking in to see if and where ego has enter and showing it the exist. Collecting the facts but always knowing there is always Truth and that is where I Live. Working with it all and bringing facts and Truth together. It's all what I want and now I have to turn to the looking for column. I Am require to put the want and the looking for columns together. It's about choices...I can't and won't go back, it's all forward. Awareness brings Light to the choices and the choices will guide the experiences. I need to breathe and listen; find the actions to take.

90 days, more than enough time. 5 days, more then enough time to decide. Right now, this present moment all is the time I require to live in. When I think about it, time has no limits. It just an illusion, there is only now, everything happens in the present moment. The space between moments is where the action shine, the Awareness shines Light and I breathe.

Everything happens for a reason, my thoughts place in Consciousness and the Consciousness knows when It's time. When the right moment arise the right action will take place and it will all be in Truth and complete Trust in Spirit, that is leading the way...A Celebration is beginning, I
Am picking the music and the Infinite Mind, the One Mind is giving the steps. I accept and start the dance. Open and ready for it All - wherever It leads.

I Am Thankful, Greatful and Blessed. I got my party clothes ready and Open to the action to start the Celebration. I release my words, all words of Good, as Law, into Law. Knowing that It is done....I Am just require to stay out of the way, don't try, just do and take the steps. My Perfect enoughness is supporting the Perfect actions, that leads to the righteous, limitless Openness and the dance start and I take the First step, in Love with Spirit and enoughness, to Perfect Light, which I see in and as Me...Mind...A Celebration!

and so It is....

FB post...

Several new experiences starting....It's time for me to breathe, get clear and see what I Am creating here. I know It will be Good because All my Love is the foundation. Have a Great day, I know I will...Love U All!

Post from FB...I Love It!

Curtisc:
Once there is Awareness, there is no going back.....but who would want to once you Know?

April Lawrence We don't "go back" on purpose, or even accidentally...but we DO "go back," and inevitably (in a sense)...But that is not a bad thing! We do no wrong in it! There is so much to say about this (working on a thesis and a book, truth be told), ...but maybe this can nutshell it: our brains seem to work at approximately this ratio--10% consciousness:90% unconsciousness (no hard dividing line, there is an area that is nearly conscious, more easily accessed). We tend to dismiss it, but the unconscious work is NOT meaningless; it keeps us freakin alive, among other things (many other interesting and important things).

Anyway, here's the rub: The more consciousness we attain, the greater our unconscious. We never lose the unconscious. We cannot. (But! We grow larger.)
or, to put it more simply (will she ever?!): The more we are Aware, the more we have and hold of which we are Not Aware.

The going back....

Using the Awareness we have...the We...the I, has never changed. We are born with the highest But It's forgotten as we grow up. Becoming Aware again of this Greatness, how can we...I go back to that old way of thinking and making choices....Conscious or unconscious? The Awareness changes all that. No mistakes, just choices. As we get more info, enlightenment, knowledge we can change those choices that we have labeled mistakes. The new choices, Awareness enhance our experience...if we get out of the way and let It. It's nothing to work for, to try to become. It's simply just Being. That's the hard part for some, Living - Being in the moment. When we are in the present moment, accept the present moment, not try and fix the present moment the Awareness...Light works. Believing in me and the present moment, knowing that everything that's needed is There! The only thing I Am require to do is just Be...ing! Simple..........


I Am Open and ready for My experiences of Life
and Celebrate the Greatness I Am....

Now that I Know.....

Now that I know, I can't go back. Once there is Awareness, you can't act like there's not. The me that I think I know does not compare to the me who I really am...I Am so much more...I still don't know how much more. I Am Aware that I Am Unlimited, Unconditional, Love, Power,The One Intelligent Mind We All Use....We Are One Mind....expressions of.

Once you are conscious, being unconscious is hard to do because, dare I say, you are Aware. Being all this, is nothing new. It has always been there, I just did know how to use IT. It is simple and it was now work at all. Now that I know, I can't go back.

Knowing that I Am more then I think I am, I see that all I experience does not change me. I Am still One with the One, The Intelligent Mind, Unlimited Power, Unconditional Love, Abundant, the Good, the All, the Great.

No matter the experience when it's over...done, I Am still Me. Better for the experience but did it add anything? Did it take away anything?...No! I Am still the Greatness that I've always been. Now that I know, It made the experience better and clear the way for the next, and the next and so on.....

Being here knowing, Aware, Believing - there is no going back and why would I want to....why would you want to.

But again...

Now that you know, I know, we can't go back...It's all forward and I Am Greatful for IT.

Love Letter #3

How do I let you know I Love You? and not just Love the way we say or experience but the Love we don't have to work for. The Love of Being! I wish I could let you know that You are enough but that's a Journey you must take. Oh! I might not walk every path with you, but I Am there. You are never alone and I Am there when the paths do cross.

How can I help you see that You are Loved and are Love, just as You are? I accept you. I forgive you. I release you. You must do the same for you. I have experience the Love you give to me but have you experience My Love?...It's there.

We Are Perfect just as We Are, wherever We Are. There is a Good that carries us from moment to moment. My Loving You and You Loving Me only makes the experience better but You are Perfect with it and without it! I see a Wonderful, Great person because when I look at you...I see me! We are the individual expression of Love and Energy from which we all come . Trust Spirit, it only goes to and come from Good. It is you, in you, around you, with you and even if it doesn't lead to me, it will pass by me for you to say, Hey!

The Love I have for you is the same Love I have for me because there is only One Love. Know that It is mine and yours. I share this experience with you and because I do the experience is Greater.

I accept your silents. I accept your moods. I accept you, where you are and who you are. I have to because I accept me the same because We are the same...Individual Expressions but the same.

I Am your Friend, I will be there. I Am there now in the present moment and I will be there in the next.

Your smile brings Joy
Your kiss bring warmth
Your tears clear and clean the way
Your laughter is music
Let's dance and Celebrate
the Love, Energy, Joy, Abundance, Prosperity and more we share.

There is so much to tell you and this is only the beginning but like my Love it will never end.
How do I let you know I Love You? You tell me, It will only be an experience but it will be one of Joy and a Celebration.

I Am Thankful and Greatful for the experience we have had and they have passed. I Am Greatful and Thankful for the experience we are having in this present moment and It is all Love. What we shall have now is only the foundation for what's to come, that is now.

I Thank You and release my words as Law, into Law. No matter what, I Am your friend. I Am there with you, as you and you as me. I Celebrate the experience....

And so It is...and more...

my quotes from FB....

Today is filled with Greatness, take it and do your best thing with it....that's what it's there for! Now, time to go make the coffee.....Love U!

The Journey - On Going; These paths - ever changing; The direction - always forward; The feeling - a Celebration of All, in All, with All!!; how we do it - together, separate but never alone...in and with Love; where do we end - We never do, we just continue to Grow! Thank you...Life is so Grand and I Am so happy!

Using the Power of Decision, knowing that you will always be enough and nothing can change that...you see things in a different Light! It Open a things up A LOT!!!

SMILE...LAUGH...ENJOY! Have a Good time no matter where the day starts...It's a choice.

Every morning when you wake just think: "It's time to go out and meet My Great!"
Remember your Greatness is within, let it out, be U wherever you are....Love U!

Enjoy the surprises, fun and Good of your day....It's all there, just stay Open, don't judge and work with It. Sometimes It starts out small but It will get bigger if You Let It! Try smiling, it's a Good starting place.

It happens

Everything that happens, happens for a reason but it just another experience in the course of the day. At the end of the day You are still You, the Love is You and the experience has moved on....work with it then you move on!

Melt down today......

I had a melt down today and it wasn't cute. It started a bit before the demonstration but as I look back over it all, there was a trail. I think it started when I got off work, I was cut early, then it was step by step and I didn't stop it, I kind of ignored it. More steps, try to calm it down but it didn't work, I was unfocused...step, step, step, glasses broke. Information I should have been on top of but wasn't....Then BAM....melt down. I'm calm now but can feel the drain of it all. I don't like this feeling and I am very happy that it has been along while between melt downs, I think the last one was when I was doing "Insanity" but this one was sent away a lot quicker. I need to stay on top of it and stay focus. But it was okay, I was aware and worked through it and stopped it. It was an experience, that's over and I Am...Greatness, Love and Happiness. It was an experience, it's over and I moved on to the present moment and know I Am. Greatness is still happening in my day and Love is always in my Life. But I do feel like having a Good, Good cry, if it's to be, it will be.

A friend was with me but she didn't know what to do because she hadn't seen me do the melt down thing. I went to talk to someone before it hit but it was just bad timing and I thought it was under control...not. I miss the core group but that's another experience. Today, the melt down was an experience in the day...I Am still me and all that is mine, is still mine!

Forgive, Accept and Release...Then more forward!

and so It is....

Trusting What's There...

There are times I have trouble trusting what's there. I change the facts in my head, I don't believe what's seen or what I feel. Well, I believe it but I say, "No, I'm just assuming." This always comes up with people.

I get attach in my head about the situation, friendship or whatever and I won't let it go. I did it with a roommate; "We've been friends for to long. I can fix it. We can make it work." I couldn't acknowledge that, as we continue on our Journey this path has come to an end. Finally, it was so ugly, all the paths were done. It became just a get out situation. I became aware of what "I" was doing.

Well, there are several situations that those feelings are coming up. The path, one of the paths is ending but I'm coming up with things to keep it all going...STOP IT! My Journey...Our Journey will continue but the paths will be different. No one wants to discuss it. It feels like when I was a kid - if we don't look at it, talk about it, It's not there biting us on the ass. But this time I don't want to build walls and doors, I don't want to make myself hurt. I want to Trust what's there. Leave things Open so, that if the paths cross again we don't run. Be aware that there are other paths that are there and working and not a problem. Keeping some level of Love and not push things across the room or across the country....I've done that before too. See the facts, Live the Truth, work with it and Live on. There are still experience we can experience together but the closeness is at a different level and that's okay! While, they add to my experiences - I Am still Me, My Greatness, My Love, My Being, the Being of One.

I want to keep their picture under friend in my mental dictionary but it doesn't have to be as big. I must remember that my picture should be the first one there. I must be a true friend to myself. Have it all as unconditional Love with conditions....a work in progress.

We must experience things but we don't have to experience it all at the same level, same feelings, I need to remember that. And if I'm truly working on Unconditional Love and moving to a higher level; I will accept people, situations, things and have the choice if I want to work with them or not.

Funny, the Journey always pass the Tree of Life and It just keeps adding branches to it and using awareness to make them strong.
I Love you but I must accept who you are because like me, the change comes when I'm ready and we must Love and respect this point. I forgive me, I accept the forgiveness and myself and I release it and me to move on with the Journey. To be happy if and when this path cross again. But I see you and We are still One!

Isn't it funny, we never walk one path together. We walk many but all paths always come back to the Center before we start another. Walking new ones, sometime together, sometime separate but never alone. Life, Love and Truth - WOW - I see the experience and Me.

I Love
I share
I give
I learn
To receive It all is such a blessing
To receive It all knowing, I Am as I Am and as I Am is the Miracle of me!
The experiences are Great
but I Am still more than any experiences Great or small.
To be aware that I Am One with all
and individual express of that Energy from which we all come from.

Let's see,
Greater then any experience I could every have.
One with All
and expression of that Energy....God
what more is there?
I rejoice in It All
I rejoice in the experience to share
I rejoice in the experience to Love
I rejoice that we're doing it all in different ways with each other....living Life.
So, what I Give is always equal to what I receive....and more!

Let's Celebrate !

What do you think about when you first wake up?

I was asked this question this morning and the only thing I could think of was; "What a Great day It is!" I was trying to think of something cute but a Great day is always the first thing that pops in my head when I wake up. Then I think Love. Then I let all the other things slowly come in and add to the Great and Love. I honestly believe that when I start my day with Greatness and Love, all else is added to that the rest of the day. If every situation I have during the day is filtered through Greatness and Love, nothing is that bad. I've also started adding that no matter what a situation is like, that I Am Greater then the situation! When I do all three first thing in the morning, the day is much nicer and fun.

There have been several times during the day I've heard myself say; "oh no, what is going on? How do we solve it? What am I going to do?" I stop and take a breath and ask...What do I want to create or What am I required to create? Then I go back to Great day, Love and I Am Greater then this situation! Then I look for way to solve and create.

Things happen, people are involved, facts are there and real to the experience but when, I see the facts and Live the Truth - working with It all is a lot nicer. There are still the moments of OOOOOOOOh no! but they are becoming fewer and far between and it takes a lot less time to start the work of solving easier from the best place.

I Am Aware and ready to do the Work. Open and full of Love....instead of full of shit!
No closing the eyes and wishing it all go away but Open and seeing facts, working to solve and move forward......knowing I Am Greater than any situation is My Life "Good or Bad"

Let's have a Great Day!

"There be's some Greatness happening......

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"There Be's some Greatness happening here and We need to start, experiencing it at a much higher level!"



This is a quote from a movie I saw some years back, can't remember the name but it was about a con man preacher, taking advantage of a small church. It was funny and when he said the quote, I didn't think much of it but I guess it stayed with me.

But today when I thought of it, I realize how true this statement was and is now. I Am experiencing the Greatness at a much higher level and taking it to even higher levels each moment. There Be's a whole lot of Greatness happening! I just feel like Celebrating.
Celebrating each step, because big or small they still are moving me forward and upward.

We should all step out and experience the Greatness, that Be's happening. Just Open Ourselves up to the positive possibles. Whatever we are experiencing, we are way more then the experience and them some. Yes, even the Greatness that we are feeling right now...We are bigger!

I Am always reminding myself of my bigger then bigness. I've let things, people and myself slow me down, stop me from breathing. There are times people (especially the ones I have Great feeling for) I let hurt me...I've accepted the hurt, but I know I Am Bigger than all that and I get up and keep moving. I Love You but I gotta go.

I have been sitting a little to long.......Oh! that's why that quote came to mind to me, today. I haven't been experiencing the Greatness, I mean really experiencing the Greatness at a higher level. And I thought I was up there but what have I been waiting for? Well, that stuff is going to stop and I Am going to move. I think I'm going for the "more", the "higher. I Love you but I Love US "more". I Am your Friend but I Am my Friend "more". Come catch up. There Be's some Greatness happening! Let's experience it at a Higher level together.

Love, Good, Unconditional, Unlimited, Bigger than..... We are Spirit, complete trust in that Spirit, and Open Truth, that has Open Me to All, ready for It All. I wish 1) you could see you the way I see you. 2) I wish I could see me in and as All the Greatness I Am. Well, 2) is happening for me. Let's see Our Greatness and know that We Are "more" then the Greatness that we stand in at this moment, in any and every way.

This Journey - on going
these paths - ever changing
the direction - always forward
the feeling - a Celebration of All, in All, with All!!!!
how do we do it - together, separate but never alone...in and with Love.
Where do we end - We never do, We just continue to Grow!

Thank you...Life is so Grand and I Am so Happy!

Focusing...

I have so much I want to talk about: Thoughts, Ideas running through my head. Light, Spirit, Happiness, Words, etc.. I Am excited for Awareness. The Awareness of Me. Remember all my Grandmother told me, understanding coming, has meaning Now. Old Ideas, new thoughts! Looking in the mirror seeing me, at times, it feels like the first time that I Am seeing Me...now. Having order of thoughts - excitement of feelings, knowing my Oneness. There is One Mind and I Am using It, It is mine.

I Am an Individual expression of that Energy from which we all come from. Whatever name we use for this Energy - I Am that - I shall call It God. Putting all my Trust in Spirit, I have a companion. Spirit travel to Good, from Good, in Good, and bring Good back and I Am there the whole time. I have always been there. It's not new, I Am not new but I have found a different way to look at It All, to use It All, to Be It All. Open and ready for any and everything. I Am on the Journey, walking the paths, enjoying It All. Because no matter what path I take, I Am Good, I Am Abundance, I Am All and nothing can change that. Awareness...I Am, We Are - Awareness is what We need, what We want, it's what we have, if we Open our eyes and get out of the way.

Our birth rite is the highest Good there is and more: Intelligence, Love, Happiness, etc. but we make the choice how we use It All and at what level. I Am choosing the highest and each day getting higher. I know, I believe, I see.

Once, my Grandmother tole me; "No matter how dark it is, there is always Light. It my only be a pin spot, but head for that Light. The closer you get the brighter It gets and when you reach It, you will find You! You are your Light, head to It, be It. It has always been You, you have always be It...never dark, always Light and Life."

Well, I Am Happy to say; I Am walking to that Light and It is getting brighter. I Am beginning to see Me and I Love It and I Love Me! I Am so Thankful and Greatful and I release my words as Law, into the Law...

and so It is...

Monday of Light

Today was a GREAT day. I saw the "I'm Beautiful" Lady today (see august 1st, the last 3 days...).
Guess what?...She was Beautiful! She had her hair on, the make up on, nails done and in scrubs and she wasn't the large, kind of crazy lady. She was the "I'm Beautiful" Lady knowing who she is. She's not crazy, she knows, Believe and Love who she is and she's letting us know It...I Believe!

If I ever have that doubt about Me, my looks, who I Am...I will always think of her! Her picture is next to the word beauty in my mental dictionary. Beautiful, Large and Sassy!

When I saw her I just smiled and I couldn't stop. I realize what, me being enough really means...I Am Enough! I Love, I Am...One! Me!

Thank you, "I'm Beautiful Lady", you have truly taught me about Love and shown me what really happens when You start with Loving Yourself as a Foundation and build everything up from there. I don't think I want to meet her - well not right now. Just let her be my teacher from a far.

I Am a Beautiful expression of God, One with All individual expressions.
I know there is One, There is Me, I Am apart of the One, I Am the One!!!
Using the Mind, the One Mind that is ours

I Am Love
I Am Abundance
I Am Prosperity
I Am Health
I Am Spirit,
Traveling to Good,
from Good,
in Good,
for Good,
to and in...
ME!
Open
Ready
Moving forward...

Celebrate!

Monday

Using the Power of Decision, knowing that you will always be enough and nothing can change that...you see things in a different Light! It Open a things up A LOT!!!

Great Monday...Wonderful week coming and Lots -O- Love! Knowing that All is well, It's the only way it can be!

The last 3 days...

WOW! The last 3 days have brought Awareness in me to a new level. For those who think I'm wordy get ready.....
I started work at Starbucks , downtown - LA Live, Friday. I have to take the subway to get there and it's different.

Going "back" to Starbucks was along thought process, because I kept thinking going back, going back...but I stop and realize that it wasn't going back, it was starting new. If I was going back to the same company, trust factors would be low. I know that this is a new path on my Journey. It wasn't the job I wanted but it had most of the things I was looking for. So, I went for the; what I was looking for column and knew that the want column is on the way or should I say, it's here but hadn't made itself known, more to come.

The subway is also Good. Friday when I was on the way home, there was this lady...black, large, strange ( I had my label machine out) and clearly alittle off. She was talking to anyone who would stand still. So, I picked up my book and started reading but listening at the same time. She was talking about how the guy she was with left her and told her she couldn't find anyone else. Her reply was: "Are you kidding, Look at Me, I'm Beautiful...I can get anyone I want!" Factual there was doubt in what she was saying but when I turned and looked...She was right, she knew who she was and was Happy with it all. She could get anyone "she Wanted!" Then, I thought, Who's crazy? She knew her Truth; she knew her Beauty and was living it and was ready to share it. I said to myself; "Do you know You? Are you ready to Believe and share You? To just be crazy!!! To be enough and Live in and with Your enoughness.

Okay, the young man I started my 1st day with, I was sitting and talking to him. I found out that his family had lost their home...A sister living in Northern Calif, father renting a room for someone and another sister living some where else and he was living with a Friend and his family. This Family "Who lost everything", not letting it stop them. The sisters are in college, the father continue working and he was working to get his own place and go to college. They just kept and keep on going. He said; "It's all going to get better and better." That stopped me... I know I Am enough and my Life is Great! But they never lost Love - so, they didn't lose everything, they knew who they were as Individuals and as a Family...They have Love!!!!

Okay, Saturday morning, 4:31 am, on the subway...homeless and yes crazy woman talking to those folks that wasn't there. Ofcourse, I think...Great. I'm reading my book, "The Power of Decision" and what does the crazy lady start shouting..."Decide, just stop and decide. You know who you are...Just decide." I stop reading and looked at her. I wanted to ask and said; "Who are you talking to? I have decided and I Am deciding " She just kept saying It. Was only the train to the next stop....about 5 mins...Who's Crazy?

So, today remembering these people, I just remember that; "God is speaking, no matter who's talking!" Today, as well as Friday and Saturday, God was speaking. I started out not wanting to listen, putting labels on everything but I became aware that those labels I was placing everywhere, went on me. I had to get over my stuff to really see, hear and Live Truth. Put away the label machine...see the facts of my Life and work with it and Live the Truth as I work with It All.

I must admit that this new path is a little uncomfortable but it is Good...headed to Great!

I feel so Open Right now. I know I Am Open right now. Right now just keeps moving from moment to moment and I Am Open to what's to come.....In Truth and Love...One Mind!

New.....

A New Me
A New Love for Me
A New sight
A New look at Me....
wait, it's Me
that Me that's always been Me.
It's not a New Me, It's just the same me
but it's a New way to look at Me
A New Acceptances of Me
Knowing that I Am It!
I Am because I Am One with All!
ONE....One Mind......
and nothing can change that, not even Me!